I think I really must be screwed up. I got a notification today that my CA125 (tumor marker) is still normal, which means I'm still in remission. For some reason, I was disappointed. I've tried to figure this out, and the only thing I can come up with is that when the levels were elevated and I was getting chemo, I knew where I stood. When it's like this, I keep wondering if it's going to come back. Will it be the next time? Six months from now? A year? Five years? The fear of the unknown can make you think strange things.
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