I haven't posted much lately; not much going on.  I am so looking forward to going away next weekend; I haven't been on a vacation in years.  I've been spending a lot of time writing for www.theonc.com.  If anybody is reading here, you can check out my articles there.

I think I really must be screwed up.  I got a notification today that my CA125 (tumor marker) is still normal, which means I'm still in remission.  For some reason, I was disappointed.  I've tried to figure this out, and the only thing I can come up with is that when the levels were elevated and I was getting chemo, I knew where I stood.  When it's like this, I keep wondering if it's going to come back.  Will it be the next time?  Six months from now?  A year?  Five years?  The fear of the unknown can make you think strange things.

Last night I went to a cancer support group for women.  It was the second time I have been there.

It's surprising to me how helpful it is to go to this group.  There are so many things I worry about and feel like I'm alone in dealing with them.  To go to a group and find out there are other people there who feel the same way makes me feel a little more normal.  Cancer can be a very isolating illness, even when you're in remission.  It's good to know you're now the only one out there.

That link for Zach's song "Clouds" is working again.